Sleep.

It is crazy what a little bit of sleep can do for your mind, body, and soul!! Last night around 11ish I want to say, my body was letting me know that it was time to go to sleep. So I listened. Boy did I fall into a deep sleep! A hurricane could have passed through my house and I think I still would have stayed asleep. Since this morning I didn’t have to wake up and head to my trainers I treated myself to sleep until about 8:20 AM.

When I woke up I did the biggest stretch, laid in bed for a minute and just let my body wake up on its own. Thats the best thing I could have done. I am currently at school and all I can say is that I feel so refreshed, and ready for the rest of my day. The past two days were rough, but I didn’t let it get me down….

If you’re having a bad day, or if you had a bad day. Sleep it off. Listen to what your body is asking of you, and pay close attention. Something so small could make the biggest difference. -xoxo

 

June 22, 2017.

June 22, 2017,

Screw you. I don’t know what more you want from me. I woke up, worked out, ate good, and on top of all that made it to school when all I wanted to do was lay in bed in the dark. So why are you being so hard on me? You know I am going through an emotional mess, and on top of that I have been feeling so nauseous and weak and just so horrible. So why do you keep trying to pull me down. You have been the worst day that I have had in a while. Emotionally I am done, drained. Physically, I just can’t anymore. Spiritually, I am hanging on by a thread. June 22, 2017 can you just chill for a minute. Let me get through this day, let me get through these classes, just let me please? -xoxo

Sorry this has been such a downer, but this is just what this blog was for. For my everyday feelings, emotions, and thoughts. Today, I am just over it.

 

How do I keep going when I am so tired?

So at around 12:15 AM our power went out, and all along our street also. Once the lights went out I knew it was going to be one of those nights. The house was way too quiet and our dogs were barking at any little noise that they heard. I tried so hard to keep my eyes closed and go back to sleep, but I just couldn’t. I wanted so bad to just go to a hotel, but then my wife brain started going on about the things in the fridge, and what if they spoil, and the dogs, etc. So I stayed in bed wide awake while I knew I had to be up bright and early for my morning workout with my trainer.

At around 2ish in the morning our power came back on, I was way too happy for this. I slowly fell back to sleep until my alarm rang. This is where it got tough for me. It rang, and rang, and rang. For the life of me I couldn’t get my body out of bed, I couldn’t wake my brain up, everything was just so heavy. I finally got the strength to get out of bed and get dressed. Once I got dressed I just sat there, kinda limp. 8:45 AM rolled around and I knew I had a 20 minute drive to my trainers.

I get there…. eventually. I go in and she gave me my first set and I knew this was going to be torture. The whole workout I just kept looking at the clock on the wall waiting for that hour to finish up so I could get back in my car and drive back home. My hour finished and I sat in my car and cried. I have never been so exhausted with taking Summer I, working out, and finding time to do homework, finding time to keep my house looking like a house, finding time to be a dog mom, and most importantly how to find time to be a wife. Well… this was my morning. I guess we will wait and see how this day goes, and see how I keep going when I am so tired. -xoxo

The start of a new life.

To start off, HELLO! My name is Meagan and I am 23 years old, and i am from Texas. I am married to a wonderful amazing woman and I am also a full time student. Graduating high school I was weighing 180 and loving life…. then I met my wife. We have been having a good time ever since, that was about almost six years ago! Now I am weighing 244 and still loving life, but not as much as I used to. I was finding it hard to breathe, hard to laugh, and hard to even make it out the door. About two years ago, I started suffering from anxiety and depression, and it was all on my weight. I always have the tendency to think that everyone is staring at me, judging me, just always looking. Of course that might be all in my head, but it is something that I feel like I am always going to suffer with.

About three weeks ago my mom got a tummy tuck, and I was taking care of her. She needed to go to Max Muscle and get some supplements, so I had to drive her. Getting there the guy that works there was so energetic and full of life!! He asked me if I wanted to be weighed and assessed, I FREAKED. My mom told me that it could change my life…. and it sure did. I got on the scale and weighed 244 lbs, my water weight was 80 lbs, and the paper marked obese. I sat down and wanted to cry. I ended up leaving there buying some supplements and my mom signed me up to work with her trainer.

I started with the trainer June 6, 2017 I got measured and started working out three days a week, nothing but water, and eating a lot cleaner. This week is the start of my third week and once again I got measured. In just two weeks of working out I dropped 13 inches from all over!! I could not believe it. I am not one to step on a scale, I feel like numbers lie. Of course… thats just me. When my trainer showed me in the inches, I stood there and cried. Not like a baby of course… but pretty close. It was an amazing feeling, like nothing I have ever felt before. I started an instagram today, to mark where I am and where I am going to go. I am beyond excited! I can not wait to see where this journey is going to take me and where I am going to be in a week, a month, or even a year.